Do you see it?

I was wondering if you see the good in people? Since our world was rocked on 9/19 I've been amazed by all the good I see around me. Was it here before? probably. Did I embrace it as much as I do now? Not nearly enough.

We feel warmly wrapped in a blanket of love. Family, friends and even complete strangers consistently go out of their way to show they care. More importantly people let us know we are in their thoughts, and that they are following Connor's journey. We feel less alone in the march with all of you around to hold us up.

Even you, that person that religiously reads my blog, that I may not know, that never leaves a comment, but comes here everyday, helps me.

As we get prepared for Connor's 24th day of radiation, my body aches with anticipation to complete this phase of treatment. At the same time I tremble with fear, since radiation has become so routine, and the next phase of treatment (Chemotherapy) becomes the unknown. I know that it too will become (albeit unfortunate) familiar.

My son was in all his glory today. Laughing, cracking jokes, full of excitement, inquisitive, and loving. We definitely celebrate the good days like we had today.

I stare at my son sometimes (he hates it by the way) and I try to take a mental picture of him right now, this day, this moment. I know that moment is the only one that matters.

I see a boy who doesn't dwell on what is happening to him, but rather a brave Jedi who embraces his life no matter what it has become, or has been placed before him.

At the library the librarian started talking to Connor about his book selection (I think he checked out the whole children's section that day, but mostly dinosaur books). "I see you like dinosaurs", she said. "Yes, he said. You see I'm an explorer, and I like to explore things, I like to search for rocks and treasure". "That sounds exciting", she said "Yes it is. Sorry I can't talk anymore, my throat is dry because I just had Radiation".

So tonight I ask that you embrace your life. See the good in people around you. Take mental pictures of those you love. Tackle the obstacles that are thrown in your path (as best you can), and explore life.